Pros and Cons

After such a long time without writing anything that came to mind, I couldn't help but wonder if it was helping or hurting me. But I did accomplish quite a bit while I didn't "blog." I stopped using the word "retarded" period. Not even to mean when someone is actually mentally challenged. I think every time I said it, I cringed a little, one day just enough to make me stop. I got an A in Math for the first time since seventh grade; even though it's Trig with Algebra (a standard class), but my teacher is kind of a dick, so I think it evens out to be an honors class. I can't remember if I got an A in French while I wasn't "blogging". But either way I got one, and that hasn't happened since middle school too. So that was quite pleasant. I had my own photo shoot that really meant something. And with that, I realized I wanted to do such things for the rest of my life. But, without "blogging" some badness did enrapture. I think I lost a friend. I don't know exactly which one, but I do feel tired of people. Some days it's good, and some days it's bad, but mostly just ew. And I've had thoughts where I wish mysterious bruises would end up on my body, so my bad driving or lazy actions would end. Nothing has washed up on my shores, thank goodness, but I don't want to be receiving SOS's like that ever really. Seeing that I am now posting, I guess my relationship with this thing is still yet to be completely revealed.